in honor of the big game this weekend:
http://www.uclahistoryproject.ucla.edu/Songs/SonsofWestwood.html
i want to make sure that everyone understands that berkeley never copyrighted the song, and thus it was in the public domain. so when ucla wrote its own lyrics and adopted the music, it was well within its rights.
this is a follow up to my post from last night about the guy who apparently had a crush on me, whose identity shall remain a secret, for now. after i told our mutual friend that i thought he was cute as well, my friend said he wanted to set us up. i told him that was not necessary but i wouldn’t mind getting to know the boy as a friend.
today, our mutual friend sent out an email, copying both of us on it, trying to set us up! when i saw that, i first thought it was pretty funny, and then i thought “oh no!” if this had happened a month ago, i wouldn’t think twice about it. but it’s different now.
technically, i can date whomever i want at this point. but there are several things i need to consider: 1) out of respect for the progress over the last month, i would not. 2) i don’t want to anyway because my heart would totally not be in it. 3) it would not be worth the misunderstanding if this later becomes an issue, and 4) i don’t want bad karma - i can only imagine how i would feel if HH were in the same situation.
but then again, how absurd is it to say to the new guy “sorry, you are cool but i don’t want to go out with you, but not because i have a bf, because i don’t; but because i kinda like this other guy, and he kinda likes me, but i don’t actually know where that’s going.”
this is the first time i had to deal with this type of dilemma in a long long time. i hope i can resolve this gracefully.
me: (dialing from my office phone)
him: hell0 (sounding like he doensn’t know how was calling)
me: hi!
him: oh hey…shouldn’t you be at lunch?
…
him: you know, you are lucky that i picked up. whenever i see 650 area codes i always think it’s work calling. i almost didn’t answer.
me: you did not just say that i was LUCKY because you answerd?
him: i meant that it was FORTUNATE FOR THE BOTH OF US that i answered
me: ok, i just wanted to make sure that it is not me who was LUCKY.
him: well, considering you were the one who called, i figured you needed something, so it’s not so far off to say that…
me: let’s get this straight…
maybe it’s part of the hazard of being in the same profession. we pick apart what others say and write on a daily basis, so it’s only natural to do that with respect to our personal communications.
either that, or we just like to bicker about almost everything.
i was confident that i would be able to make my games last night - i was feeling well enough to play and pretty excited to catch up with my team. around 4 pm i got the comments back on a brief that i had been working on. there went my night!
i felt really guilty for flaking so last minute, considering we were short two girls, which means we would have to forfeit if we didn’t find a sub. my team was cool about it, as always, and scrambled to find subs. i called JO to tell him that i can make it to the last game if necessary, because by then i should have gotten enough done to take for an hour. they managed without me.
it looks like CB will be not have a vb league for a while - we can’t stop playing, so i guess we will have to find an alternative.
just found out from a friend that this guy i had met at the big pool party on july 4th had a crush on me, but none of our common friends thought he would be my type and hence discouraged him. i actually thought he was really cute and a cool guy, definitely would not have minded to get to know, even if just as a friend
I am back from nyc with a really sore throat, bad congestion, and feeling totally sluggish. The miles and miles that I walked have really taken a toll on me (and my feet). along with the sub-freezing temperature, the all night outings and alcohol consumption, I am exhausted. Yet when I look back on the seventy-two hours I spent in nyc, all I feel is exhilaration and a yearning to visit again.
I ended up working most of the night on a brief on the red eye to jfk, but I was at least able to witness an amazing sunrise from the plane, with lot of deep reds intertwined with a few golden flocks.
Highlights:
witnessing two amazing sunrises on the way to and from jfk -both with lot of deep reds intertwined with a few golden flocks.
getting around nyc and know (sort of ) where I am going and not looking like a tourist
Cream puffs and chocolate shop with MS and SW
having a great host
Brief stop to drop off chocolate-covered sunflower seeds for HH at his time square office - I thought it was very sweet of me. =)
The van gogh exhibit at the MET
All night partying, every night – culminated in a memorable farewell party at pm
Watching oakenfold live at the crobar – closing my eyes and becoming entranced by his mix of “southern sun”
the “abercrombie boys” dancing next to us
Visiting rockerfeller center and went to the top of the rock -I was not even that scared
Fully embracing (instead of being afraid of) the romantic overtones, while strolling around midtown along fifth avenue and watching the beautiful snowflakes display at saks
Coming to an understanding about our constant bickering
The carlton hotel, and a really spacious, well appointed room
A thanksiving feast with old and new friends
Meeting DL for the first time but yet feeling like we have been friends for a long time
the best way to welcome me to nyc - yook gae jang, which always make me happy and warm
Catching up with PC -though he claimed there was too much estrogen while hanging out w us girls
Pastrami at katz and SW’s free meal and eating on a bench in the cold in east village
Laughing at silly girl stuff -and probably waking up at the neighbors
Lots of good food
Getting in touch with my korean roots - the hotel was close to k-town and we ate there three times in three days
Lowlights:
working most of the night n a brief on the red eye to jfk
No lobster benny at jane
Sub-freezing temperature
Feeling like maybe I should have taken a chance and took a job in nyc
Getting sicker every day
My feet hurt and my left ankle is a bit sore
Not have visited the empire state building because the line was too long
Missing dj tiesto
Heels stuck in the gap in between the couches while dancing
at the end of a 2-hr conversation around 3 am, i finally told HH that i was going to nyc. it went as i expected - he immediately asked me what my plans were while there. i told him not to feel obligated to hang out w me - i think that i came across sincere (becuase i was). we didn’t make any firm plans but tentatively we should be able to spend some time together.
he is on his way - my plane will take off in about ten hours. i still have a motion to draft and pack! this is going to be a super hectic day.
i am so excited.
last night was the most unrestful sleep i have had in years - i must have had ten mini- dreams, and with each i woke up feeling more agitated, particularly with respect to one email that ended “good luck to you.”
i got to talk to CT this morning as she drove to work - i am sure she realized that there was a reason why i called her three times within a few hours last night. talking to her always calms me down, but i think from the conversation it was also evident to her just how insecure i currently am.
i took the time off today to play some vball at the oval. it was so nice to be out and not working. afterwards JL and i had a long dinner and caught up on everything that has happened in the last month. sometimes we just need to make time for important people in our lives. again, it beats working too.
i would think HH should be home by now from the weekend outting. but no word yet. i really hope i didn’t talk it up too much and set myself up for a fall.
but unlike before, i am feeling pretty confident. plus i figured, i am already in too deep so might as well dive in further.
the opening act sucked -it was so bad that CV and i decided to step out to spare our ears from the noise. the first hour or so depeche mode performed the songs from its new album - which didn’t receive as much as of a weclome. then the classics began - and the entire place was rocking. i can’t remember the last time i screamed so loudly. needless to say, we had almost no voice left at the end of the night.